21st Birthday
Drunk, kinda lonely. Thinking I might go play Tomb Raider (though I’m doubting I will be able to solve puzzles in this state). I hate how birthdays are this insane rollercoaster of feeling like you’re not so alone, and feeling like you have to prove yourself for being such a fucking loner.
So I don’t have many close friends? What’s so fucking wrong with that? I feel like I’m supposed to, but all I have are vague aquaintances and people I live with. How do you make friends with the guys in engineering? You invite them over to your house, they either think you are flirting with them (and as such, believe you are desperate or soooo awesome) or… I don’t remember what the other one was.
I don’t know. I like being alone. i don’t feel like there should be this standard that you’re not supposed to be alone, because I *like* it. I like keeping people at a distance, and whatever.
I don’t even know what I am talking about anymore, but I dunno what else to do other than watch stupid television shows I own or eat more cake.. Or both.
